Sunday, November 30, 2008

A Eulogy for Jordy (Written and Delivered by Benner)


I think if he were here listening right now, my Grandpop would probably try to change the subject or turn up the volume on the nearest TV. He never really liked to talk about himself that much, which is a shame because he was a remarkable man.

He was a husband of fifty-five years, a father of four, grandfather to four more. His family was his treasure, the thing he adored above all else. He was always there for us, sitting in the stands, giving rides, explaining how things work. If something was needed and he had it, he would give it. And if he couldn’t, it pained him to say no. Everyone in the family depended on him for something, and he always came through when you needed him.

I’ll forever associate the game of baseball with my grandfather. He taught me how to field grounders and switch-hit when I was eight. If he could, he would have spent every day of his life watching Richard play baseball or Janet play softball. And I’ll always remember him sitting on the porch, playing solitaire while he listened to the Phillies on his rinky-dink radio. Baseball was a part of who he was.

Teaching and coaching were also major parts of his life. He worked several jobs to pay his way through West Chester State Teachers’ College, which he was always proud of. Bartram High was his second home for many years. He loved it there, was proud of the students he taught, the players he coached and mentored.

Outside of school, he was a creature of habit. Of course, I’m talking about eating habits. He loved food with a passion, which may be partially to blame for his fifty-five year marriage to my grandmother, who I always said should have opened a restaurant. My grandfather ate the way he played basketball: with tenacity. I didn’t know a person could get corn stuck in his eyebrows until I watched him do it with my very own eyes. And it wasn't just dinner: the man kept cake and ice cream on hand the way regular people stock up on paper towels.

Some people in my family called him He-Man. I find this to be inaccurate, because He-Man was aware of his own superhuman strength. My grandfather, on the other hand, was not. For the past twenty years, a screwdriver has been required to open my grandparents' front door due to Jordy’s habit of pulling doorknobs right off the thing. And in the history of automobiles, I think no man has had to replace a turn signal lever more than he has. He practically ripped them clean off.

It was painful watching him in his final years. Here was this great man, this athlete, this guy who didn’t know how to quit, trapped in his own failing body, tethered to an oxygen machine. Instead of victory and satisfaction, his life was pain and tedium. But Jordy being Jordy, he barely remarked upon it. And then this past Friday, he was tired and in pain, worn out from fighting a battle that would have put others to death long before, and he called out to my grandmother. “Babe,” he said in the middle of his restless night. “Call the angels and tell them to come get me.”

The next morning, he had a cup of coffee, fell asleep, and never woke up.

My grandmother never could make a decent cup of coffee.

And though Jordy has passed on, we take comfort in knowing he is no longer a slave to his sickness. He is in heaven, wearing a perfectly worn-in mitt, playing nine innings of baseball with all the angels, who heard his call that Friday night, and came to get him.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Happy Birthday, Chucklet!

Today is my dad Chuck's birthday. I sang "happy birthday" on the phone and we got to talk for a bit, but Dad, I just want to say again how much I love you and wish you a very special year. Thank you for a lifetime of Sound of Music harmonies, finger dancing/imaginary composing, sharing gallons of ice cream, summers at the Mann, warm gloves on a cold day, car drive talks, Garrison Keillor and so much more. I miss you so much and wish I could be there celebrate in person. But since I can't, here are many memories to share!

Me and my dad at Thanksgiving a couple years ago.

Me and my daddy.

He's always been my biggest fan.

Chuck when he was just a little guy.

What a nice German-looking baby.

My Daddy crawling, and looking a lot like Grandpa.

He always was a thinker.

Such a good looking pair...

Great ideas were brewing here.

Remember, sunlight is a very good source of vitamin D.

Toaster Chuck.

Most of all, he loves me. Happy birthday, daddo!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Six Months in LA

As of November 3, Rhianwen and I have been in Los Angeles for exactly six months. That means we have spent approximately 1/50th of our lives here in California, because like most people we measure and judge our lives in fractions of 50.

So how has this past fiftieth of our lives held up compared to the other 49? Not bad. We've had plenty of blessings. Rhianwen and I live with our best friends in the world (each other, duh) in a terrific home in a beautiful place. Rhianwen has a job that she enjoys, and maybe more importantly she is building good relationships with her co-workers. We have found an amazing church that we seem to appreciate more and more each week. We have an ever-growing group of friends that bless us despite the fact that we sometimes don't have the means to bless them. We're geographically closer to Sarah and Steve, which is a dream Rhianwen has had ever since Sarah left Philadelphia for Berkeley more than ten years ago.

Of course, there are hardships too. I've been unemployed for going on ten months now. We never thought finding a job would be this hard (and believe me, I have applied to a lot of jobs in just about every field that doesn't require an M. or J.D.) and it is putting a particularly tough strain on our finances currently. Of course there is the occasional bout of homesickness. Rhianwen has been hit hard with it since the moment we drove away from Phil and Rachel's back in April. I mean, let's face it, when we found out Rachel is pregnant, our joy was quickly followed by a longing to be in the company of our dear friends. And then there's the Phillies World Series victory; I wait 25 long years for the thing to happen, and they wait until I skip town to do something about it. I am still sifting through my friends' Facebook photos of the days-long celebration, suppressing tears as I go.

But hey, the hardships are blessings too, because that's part of God's wacky design, right? I've been extremely close to landing a job on several occasions, only to have the door closed on me for unknown reasons. Could it be that those unknown reasons are God's ways of saying, "I don't want you spending two and a half hours a day on the 405"? And being apart from our friends and family might be tough, but our desire for community has only helped us forge tighter friendships here in LA. Sure, it will suck to be 3,000 miles away from home for Thanksgiving and Christmas but... well, actually there's no upside to that. Buy us tickets, please?

Most of all--and I think Rhianwen will agree with me here, maybe we can get a Rhi's Remark about it later--I think our marriage has been strengthened. Even though we are shakier than we have ever been financially and materially, I am more confident than ever that our relationship can survive anything.

Rhi's Rhimark: I'll just say that I am tremendously proud of Benner and the diligence and faith he has displayed these past few months. He is an amazing husband and I love him dearly. As far as these past 6 months have gone: God has never given us more than we can bear and He has used our circumstances to make us more available to Him. Through that dependence He has been drawing us closer and working in our hearts and that gives us more satisfaction that anything else. We are grateful for these past 6 months, for all of your encouragement and support, and look forward to what lies ahead.